I wonder if this is how people always get close: They heal each other's wounds; they repair the broken skin.” ― Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

In order for someone to help heal your wound, you need to allow someone to get close enough to know what those wounds are. You need to let down the walls and other barriers and be vulnerable even for just a second. Sometimes we need to decide whether or not a person is worth being vulnerable for and if you want to take the risk of starting to allow someone in and allow them to see those dark corners of yourself. A lot of the times allowing yourself that moment of vulnerability is what ends up causing pain, but the question is, was that moment worth it? Did that moment cause another wound or did it help heal even if it was the tiniest of tiny bits.

Giving up those barriers and walls is, in my eyes, an incredible gift to give someone. You are allowing them a way into your world, even if they may not know it. It is a scary thought allowing someone in again, allowing someone to begin to get close to you. Sometimes I wonder if it is something you are conscience of, letting those barriers down. Half the time I don’t realize I let barriers down until I get hurt, recently happened: began letting barriers down. Do I want to be vulnerable and have my guards down? Goodness no, terrified of going through the heart ache and being wounded all over again. While letting someone in seems so terrifying and can cause more heartache, in time someone comes along that helps heal those wounds and make those scars fade away.

Getting close to someone means you need to let them into all aspects of you. For me all I think about is what has already been broken, I’m screwed up for whoever decides I am worth the risk. I know I am broken and at times wonder how I can ever be healed after all I have been through. I can think of only 1 person who knows it all and even then that person doesn’t know it all. How can I let someone new in? How can I forget the fears and worry to let myself be vulnerable once again?