“No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side.  Or you don't.”    ― Stephen King, The Stand


So often we go through tribulations that affect who we are as people.  They change our outlooks, way of thinking, even sometimes the way we act.  Others in our lives sometimes try and figure out why these changes were made and try to analyze or compare us to who we used to be.  So often we hide what we are going through, even if we don’t other people cannot see the inner turmoil we go through on a daily basis.  The changes within us are exactly that it is within ourselves.  We cannot pinpoint the exact moment when the change occurred. We cannot say “It was this exact point when this happened” As King said in his book “there are no maps of the change” there is no way we can determine when the change occurred because it is a gradual process.

We are always trying to analyze things not just within ourselves but within those around us, but how can we do that when cannot see the personal hell each person goes through.  There are things I am sure all of keep hidden even from our best of friends and spouses.  Many times we cannot even see the personal hell we go through because we either try to hide from them or put on a  happy face and pretend they aren’t happening.  A lot of tribulations we deal with we can’t find our way through until we come out the other end a changed person.  I know with my tribulations I didn’t notice the changes that were being made.  Almost 7 years later I look back and realize I am a different person because of the things I have been through, they helped mold me and make me into who I am today.  I cannot pinpoint the exact moments, I can say which trials helped mold me, but as far as what trials changed what I cannot say.

That’s how life works.  There is always going to be mountains to climb and valleys to pass through, but you cannot map out the course and determine when you will hit trouble or when you will come out of it, or even what that trouble will do to you as a person.  You kind of have to put faith in whatever you believe in even if it is faith in yourself to make it through to the other side.